I feel like I am experiencing a mid-life crisis at the age of 23.
Current Thoughts: @!$$%$#%@#$%$.
Maybe because I have been married for 4 years?
Maybe because I have been at the same job for 5 years?
Maybe because I dont know what I am supposed to be doing!!!
It's definitely not the marriage part - because thats what brings me the most joy!!!!
I am just frustrated with myself because I had so many dreams of where I would be and what I would be doing, and I'm not there.
My job has been a blessing and has provided us with the roof over our heads, paid the bills and provided us with good health benefits - HOWEVER, I feel trapped in its grasp. It's like my life has become so dependent on that job that I am too scared to try anything else in fear that I would make less money or regret my decisions. And of course we have the news shoving the "recession" and "job losses" down our throats....
I just pray that God would provide me either with a better job or an opportunity to go back to school....I really need a change.
Anyways - I shamelessly watched the Hannah Montana movie today and it reminded me once again, that its not about being on the mountain top, "it's all about the climb." She sings there will always be mountains even after we conquer some, so enjoy the climb...let it build your faith, increase your endurance and strengthen you from the inside out, knowing completely that God was with you every step.
*Sigh*
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P.S: I love you!
P.S.S: Just Kidding...and that was a terrible movie
