I Love My Granny!

Flowers from my Granny for my Birthday ---  was such a nice and welcomed surprise!!!

"Discmans" and Paparazzi

I spent some time today putting a few cd's onto our ITouch....such an awesome little gadget. I was thinking back to my high-school days where I thought it was cool to own a Sony disc-man. So you have this big clunky disc-man, and then you also have to ensure if you want more music, to carry a few CD's with you. It was so inconvenient. However, music was important to have, so thus you did what you had to.

Fast forward a few years later, and you can now load pretty much every CD you own onto this little IPOD with room yet for apps, movies and tv shows.

Last Christmas we bought a Harmon Kardon IPOD dock.....you should hear the sound! It's amazing. Crank up a Gaga song, and the bass will shake the house! I use it pretty much everyday. Create a quick play list of songs, crank it up and la dee da dee da!!!!

I just watched a documentary by Adrien Grenier (Entourage) on the world of the paparazzi. Specifically, it was focused on a 14 year old boy who engaged in the paparazzi world. He addressed the issues of why they do what they do, why the world is so obsessed with celebrity and how fame changes people. It was pretty interesting, caught it randomly on HBO this afternoon.
Of course, which song came on during credits?
Gaga's "Paparazzi" --- obviously! lol.

Well, gotta go attend to some house work!

XxOo!

IDK!

I just don't know!
I don't know.

All I know, is that I don't know.

:)

I don't know about anything.
I don't know who I am. Where I am going. Or what I should do.
I don't know what's real and what's counterfeit.
I don't know when to look the other way and when to fight.
I don't know when to confront, and when to just offer a shoulder.
I don't know why people act the way they do.
I don't know why people love even when they have been hurt.
I don't know why I am where I am today.
I don't know how much longer I can work in a job that shreds the inner parts of me.
I don't know why I feel alone, when I have people around me.
I don't know why I don't feel God the way I used to....

....and lastly, I don't know how Bran puts up with me! :) But I'm glad he does!

It's just a world of "dont know's" - and perhaps these questions need to be left unanswered.

Desperation

A few days ago I was working on some music/lyrics and and the verse from Psalms in which David says, "Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me" came to mind. Particularly the part when David asks for the restoring of joy that comes with salvation.

It is SO important that the joy of salvation is restored to us. It's living that first moment over again where you have found Jesus and everything in this world has grown dim compared to the desire to know Him.
It's having your cares stripped away and replaced with peace.

Knowing Jesus isn't boring.
Nor is it just law and religion.

In Psalm 16:11 it says, "You will make known to me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; In Your right hand there are pleasures forever."

In HIS presence, there is FULLNESS OF JOY. :)
In HIS right hand, there are PLEASURES FOREVER!

So back to the first paragraph, I was just hit with the fact that we (I) need to start back at that first place....desiring a clean heart, a right spirit and the joy of salvation. Coming to the place of repentance and humility.
It's going back to square one.

In Psalms 42:1-2 it says, "As the deer pants for streams of water,so my soul pants for you, my God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.When can I go and meet with God?"

This verse is where I am at right now in my life.
I am on the verge of breaking, I am tired, I am desperate. My soul thirsts for the living God.
WHEN can I got and meet with God! :)

XOxo

Be Still My Heart....

Call of Duty Black Ops comes out.......at 11:59 on my Birthday.....EEEEEEEPPPP!! (Technically, it's out on the 9th, but they are advertising the 8th because...well you know...)

I still need to finish Modern Warfare 2. It seems that whenever I actually get time to sit down and play, I spend all my time doing online play instead of completing missions.

Pow pOW!

Peanut Butter Birthday Time!

In a mere 2 days, I will be 25 years old. By no means is this a traditional birthday milestone, however, I am declaring it to be special because of the following reasons:

1. Dairy Queen had its 25th anniversary in the summer.
2. 25 divided by 5 is 5. My favourite number is 5.
3. 25 is ¼ of a century.
4. I will be half my dad's age until November 20th and I will be half my mom’s age when she turns 50 in April 2011.
5. Just celebrating our 5th wedding Anniversary back in August, I have been married for 1/5 of my lifetime.

I have always believed a birthday cannot fully be celebrated on only one day. It must be enjoyed for the full month. Hence, I shall proclaim November my birthday month.

There are a few perks about being born in November. My favourite perk is that Christmas is just around the corner and so I decorate my house the first week of November. Birthday pictures will look spectacular with all of the Christmas lights and decorations! I have had a few birthdays with snow and that has made my heart happy. I love snow. Snow is happiness falling from the sky. LOL. (I know, super corny, but it’s true.) My birthday is far enough from Christmas that I get to enjoy my gifts and not feel like the 2 occasions are squished into one. My birthday is close enough to Christmas that there isn’t this let down after you have opened your gifts. In approximately one month, you just get to open more! Christmas is not about opening presents, but its sure fun!

Speaking of Christmas, I decorated my house last night. Last night marked 50 days until Christmas. Wootwoot! I bought some new indoor lights from Wal-Mart and they look spectacular!!!!

On Saturday, I re-arranged my whole living room. I think it looks a lot more warm and welcoming. So my challenge last night was to “Christmasify” my house, but without making it look tacky. When you whip out your Christmas decorations, it’s so easy to want to plop decorations wherever there is a free space. One of my biggest pet peeves is people who have little knick-knacks and trinkets everywhere. It’s so cluttered looking, and just......tacky. Ha-ha. I suppose there’s a little more grace during Christmas, but you better put your trinkets away on January 1st!!!

I can’t wait until the time change on Sunday the 7th. The obvious advantage is that you gain an hour. The not so obvious advantage, is that the evenings become dark earlier. I LOVE IT! I love leaving work at 4:30 and it getting dark outside. You get to see the Christmas lights, and see the snow light up the sky.......and its all so wonderful!

XOxo

A life of Glee or Theme Music. To be or not to be.

Somehow my mind always wanders back to that one episode of Family Guy where Peter Griffin wishes that he had theme music for his day to day laugh. His wish is granted and for every footstep he takes, there is music that moves with him.

I wonder, what would be preferable.
Having theme music like Peter Griffin, or spontaneously breaking into song through out the day like an episode of Glee. .

I would love for life to exactly like Glee. For that to happen however, you would have to have the world around you perfectly aligned. It would require science.
You see, the moment a song comes to you after you have experienced some emotion (love, happiness, hate, hurt etc.); the band must instantaneously appear behind you. Without talking or looking at them, they will know the key, the rhythm, which instruments to play, when to come in, when to end and if you will have an instrumental break.
Once the band’s details have been worked out, somehow, the people around you (both friends and strangers) must know which lines they will sing, where to harmonize, and when to not sing so that you have the spotlight.
They must also be equipped with dancing skills. They will know exactly which choreographed movements to use for each song.

Phewf. It’s a lot of work. Discussing this has made me decide that I would much rather live my life like an episode of Glee than just walking around with theme music.

Glad we have established this point.

Anyways, unless I have billions of dollars and a ridiculous team of superheroes such as scientists, musicians, dancers, etc – I think that none of the above will occur.

So, plan B:
I will happily be content to just sit at my piano day after day after day and let whatever I am feeling come out in music and song.
I will also happily be content with throwing on a CD (well, those are becoming extinct. Let’s say, putting my IPOD on play) and blasting it nice and loud!

Music to me is the equivalent of what donuts are to Homer Simpson.
Pure, beautiful, bliss.